Black Cloud

I feel that I now have medical evidence to back up my consistence claim that I do, in fact, suffer from living life under a black cloud. I do not mean to be negative or self-deprecating, but I feel that I am simply stating a fact. Let's review just a few of the laundry list of ailments that I have encountered, despite the fact that I would consider myself to be a fairly active, consciously healthy eater, non-smoker, and otherwise healthy 20 something year old (I can only say this a few months longer, I realize!). Mind you, all of these things happened as I was an ADULT, not child:

Amnesia due to car accident
Deviated septum (the bone in my nose got pushed 1/8" from my brain) during a volleyball injury
Kidney Stones hospitalizations
Tonsillectomy and adenoid removal during my student teaching semester
Pre-term labor with 14 weeks of strict bed rest as a result
Pre-term delivery (Brecken was born 6 weeks early and spent 2 weeks in the NICU)
Miscarriage and subsequent D&C surgery
Ruptured ovarian cyst
Emergency appendectomy
Removal of gall bladder
Ileus (post-op complication following above gall bladder removal/ appendectomy requiring a week's stay in the hospital)

I feel like my black cloud might even be affecting those closest to me..... My precious Brecken has had 14 ear infections, 3 perforated ear drums, and every medical condition known to a child ranging from H1N1 to croup to Roseiola and as of this week, can now cross pink eye off of his list as well. My mom has had three separate cancer diagnosi's. And my then-fiance (now husband) once had a glass bottle fall off of a shelf and deeply slice his neck open when I asked him to help me do something. I have to ask myself, is it me????? I totally am aware of the fact that every one of these conditions is common..... Things happen to everyone, none of these (solo or in small doses) would be THAT big of a deal. But why do they ALWAYS happen to me?? How have I had THIS MANY ridiculous things happen! Those that know me always just say "Looks like the black cloud has struck again," or "Of course this would happen to you...." We laugh about it and I feel like I have come to accept that I'm unlucky in life at times, but I still think it sucks. And you can't say I'm a hypochondriac because these are all SERIOUS medical catastrophic events confirmed by cat scans and surgeons! I'm NOT just dreaming these up?!?!

I feel that I must put out the disclaimer that I am fully aware of the GOODS in my life also. I do not take for granted that I have the most caring husband, the most beautiful child, and am surrounded by family and friends that genuinely care about me. I have a house, a job (at least I hope I still have a job after my most recent pending disaster as I haven't been back in a couple of weeks now!), and many nice things that I am grateful for. I do not mean to be self-loathing and in no way want this to come across as a pity party for myself. Well, okay, perhaps I am having a little big of a pity party, but I feel like I might as well just get it out of the way so I can move on :)

I am now FINALLY, after 1 week and 1 day, able to eat solids. I kept food down yesterday and I've never been so excited about anything in my whole life! *Hopefully* this means I am on the mend..... Brecken will have tubes put in on December 2nd which will *hopefully* make him a little less likely to catch every germ within an 8 mile range and hold onto it for weeks. I truly am *hopeful* for a much healthier and happier 2011, and BEYOND ready to put 2010 in the history books. I look forward to the day where we feel like we can make dinner plans and play dates with families with little ones because we don't assume that our child will be sick and therefore infectious by the time the date on the calendar arrives. I look forward to the the time that I can go several months without a visit to the ER. I look forward to no more ear infections, organ removals, or bodily stones of any kind!!!!! I look forward to the week where Brecken gets to attend his school FIVE WHOLE DAYS and Mommy and Daddy both get to go to their jobs FIVE WHOLE DAYS!!!!! Not sure when these things will happen, but I am hopeful......